listening to silence

tonight i could sit and type for days
so filled with emotions desires fears
behind the words i'm reaching out
for i know you're there reading listening
to the words that flutter across my keys
my heart is open for someone anyone to see
desperate to be seen needed loved
please help me i can't face the silence
of the blinking cursor that is before me
are you there can you hear me hello
for fuck's sake answer me please
but that is not your role audience of mine
you're not there for my saving
but for a joined carthardic weeping perhaps hoping
that this too will pass that life will go on
i fucking hope it gets better than
listening to silence