anxiety is back up

well what do you know
i've done it again
created a lovely little space
where i've got to cram it all in
the stress is seeping from my pours
why do i do this?
am i so masochistic
that i have to repeat these patterns
creating harm after harm after harm?
every post i've ever written is true
i want to consume, rage, destroy
anything...everything
god damn it i get so fucking tired of this