forgotten

i've forgotten so much
my grief
my pain
my joy
my love

it's all become a mad dash
and what for?

it's about time to change
but change ain't easy

so what now to answer
this what for?

for me goddamnit
for me
for my family
for my wife
for my children
for me
for me
for me

the trouble is
my attempts
are paths of failure
so though it is
for me
it's a whole lot of
the same old shit

it's about time to change
but change ain't easy

so what now to answer
this what for?

for me goddamnit
for me
for my family
for my wife
for my children
for me
for me
for me

what to do?
where to go?
anywhere but there...
i'm not yet broken
i'm really shattered
held together by some
unseen thread

to go there
upon my knees
will be the undoing
the undoing of all
of me
me
me
me