fuel

i'm desperate
i need fuel
anything to feed the
overwhelming fire
that is engulfing my soul
images flash faster
faster than i can comprehend
anything to escape
alcohol
drugs
sex
i don't care
addictions need fuel
fuel fuel fuel
i need fuel
i need it now

breathe


deep



slowly

i can do this

i can do this without fuel

but damn i'm running on empty
just this once
it'll get me through
until next time

i can do this

i can do this without fuel

but am i ready
ready to ask beg plead
for fuel from above?

within my soul

seemingly out of nowhere
the overwhelming surge of emotion
vehement desire and hostility
engulfs me beneath the raging
waters that are inherent yet
supressed within my soul

desperately i search
the empty voids of existance
enticing desire and carelessness
battle against the calming
waters that are inherent yet
suppressed within my soul